Tom Miller, age 30, grew up inStaten Island,New York. He came to Houston 2 years ago for a faculty position in the Department of Ecology and Evolutionary Biology at Rice University. His research focuses on plants, insects, and their ecological interactions. When Tom came to yoga in Houston, it was obvious that he was athletically active. Tom has been an avid runner for ten years. His favorite race is the marathon, and he recently qualified for Boston..I spoke with him on Sunday, December 5, about how he got into yoga, his challenges, and the benefits he’s received from practice.
P.S: When did you start yoga in Houston and how did you get into it?
TM: I started yoga when Lincoln, Nebraska. I was dragged to a Vinyasa class in 2005 by a good friend of mine while in graduate school. It didn’t click with me right away, but I kept on going and it began to seem like a good alternative to other things I was doing–mainly running and cycling. Then I began to notice I was gaining more flexibility and I really liked that. I did that for 2 years.
PS: What happened next?
TM: I moved to Florida. There I found a rigorous Vinyasa class. I mean this was a workout where everybody was drenched in sweat. I liked this as a new form of exercise. They played hip-hop music. There was a dance element that I really liked–like there were mirrors everywhere and you could see everyone moving, and it was pretty to watch. Then I moved to Houston and looked for a similar class, but couldn’t find it. I tried a few yoga classes in Houston, but never really found the same thing.
PS: How did you end up in Iyengar yoga in Houston?
TM: [laughs] I didn’t know I was going to an Iyengar Yoga class. Maybe it was something I could do on a Thursday night, and I saw on the schedule that it was an intermediate/advanced class, so I came to it. I had no knowledge of the Iyengar method.
PS: And what was it like?
TM: At first I didn’t like it, to be honest. But I kept going back, without really understanding why. Then gradually I realized it was different, new, more intellectual, and more educational than anything I’d done before. I was beginning to learn about my body. And I realized that most people go through life not really understanding their bodies. It’s like they live in this house but they never really open up the cabinet doors and see what’s inside. Or they never look under the floor boards, or explore the nooks and crannies. But there they are living right there. I feel like I’m learning a lot about my body, so for example, even when I sit in my office chair, I can think of a posture, and stretch my body right there.
PS: Do you recall how this happened for you?
TM: It’s the connections you make between the parts of the body and how they work in the postures, and the way you structure the class. I began to notice the way muscles worked together in one posture and then see the same actions in other postures, and build on that. That’s the kind of learning you don’t get from other types of yoga.
PS: If you think about your obstacles in your yogic path, what would you say are your greatest challenges?
TM: [Laughs] My biggest challenge is I don’t work on my obstacles! Everyone is different, you know. Everyone has their abilities and inabilities, things they can do easily, things they can’t do well [in yoga asanas]. There’s this positive feedback loop where you’re good at something, so you practice it. Then you get better at that very thing you were good at to begin with. For me, I like to do the things I do better and I don’t put the energy in to do the things I don’t do well. That’s the physical challenge.
PS: I believe it was Rodnee Yee [yoga teacher in San Francisco Bay area] who made the observation that you can tell the beginning level students from the intermediate students in that beginners practice exclusively what they’re good at, and intermediate and serious students practice mainly what they’re not good at. It’s the difference between feeding the ego and going beyond the ego.
TM: [laughs and nods]
PS: You said that those were the physical challenges, but what about other challenges in yoga?
TM: [nods] It’s the tension between the spiritual/religious aspects in yoga and whether I fit with that or whether they fit in my life.
PS: Can you say more about that?
TM: I’m an atheist and yoga is a religion. You taught me that! Sometimes I feel like I might be betraying myself and my own beliefs, or others, by participating in a religion. That’s why I don’t chant. You’ve probably noticed I don’t chant.
PS: It’s totally optional. It doesn’t matter. It’s not a requirement. The Iyengars all understand that there are cultural differences and they don’t require anyone to chant, even though they practice like that and lead everyone in the “prayers”. In fact there is at least one senior level teacher I know of who is a devout Christian and does not begin class with chanting or the invocation to Patanjali. But what did you mean about betraying others? Can you say more about that?
TM: I was raised Catholic, and I used to have this priest, and he would talk [disparagingly] about the “super-market” Catholics.
PS: The supermarket Catholics?
TM: Yeah, when I was a kid, I went to church every Sunday. I was an Altar Boy. On holidays, of course the church was packed with all these people who came only on holidays. This one priest would give a sermon about the super-market Catholics, who were just like shoppers, going through the store, just picking and choosing the elements of the religion that appealed to them and leaving the rest. His point was that this was an insult or kind of disrespect toward the truly devoted members of the church. And sometimes I wonder: is it okay for me to pick and choose the parts of yoga that I like, which are the physical aspects, and is that going to diminish others’ experiences or be disrespectful of those who are truly devoted?
PS: B.K.S. Iyengar would not see it that way.
TM: Really?
PS: No. If you read Guruji’s 2005 book Light on Life, he discusses the various reasons that people come to yoga. Most people come for physical benefits. They have some ache or pain and someone told them to try yoga. Or they want to become stronger or more flexible. He’s not bothered by this. He says that even if they come for physical reasons, yoga will help them with this and affect them on deeper levels. The practice will affect the different layers of their being. He puts it very poetically, but I can’t find my copy right now, so I’m just going to paraphrase him. People may only be aware of the physical reasons and benefits but gradually the deeper parts of themselves awaken to its powers. The breath flows more easily and digestion is improved. They sleep better. They feel less depressed, so the emotions are cleansed. They have more clarity of mind, so the mental layer is affected too. Eventually the spiritual layer is affected, whether they realize it or not. But it doesn’t matter. People come to yoga for different reasons and that’s fine. Yoga benefits all. You get what you put into it and even more. Can you talk about what you’ve received from your yoga practice, or the effects it’s had on your life?
TM: The most obvious effects have to do with my running. I am a long distance runner. [Tom has done several marathons and recently qualified forBoston.] I am a better runner because of Iyengar yoga. I can’t be scientific about this, because I’ve been doing them both for a while now. I’m not sure I can articulate why or how it’s working, but my joints are just really happy. And I used to have real problems with my feet, ankles, shins, and knees, and since I’ve been doing Iyengar Yoga, I don’t have these problems anymore.
PS: You say you can’t be scientific about it, but it seems you can separate the variables–because you remember symptoms you had during periods you ran, before Iyengar yoga, and contrast them with your running life now. And I bet you notice a difference when you don’t practice for a while.
TM: [nods] Yes. I definitely notice a difference when I take periods off of yoga. Especially as it concerns quieting the mind.
PS: Do you notice the difference when you run that your mind is quieter, in other words, not churning thoughts or working on a problem?
TM: No, I don’t try to quiet the mind when I run. I like to churn thoughts. I get some of my best ideas for work when I’m running. I think actively about them when I run. So the whole business about quieting the mind is a real challenge–especially for intellectuals and academics, as you know. I get obsessive.
PS: Do you feel like your yoga practice is helping you to clear your mind, or let things go a little bit?
TM: Yes. I am learning to let things go.
PS: Tell us something most people don’t know about you.
TM: I’m a musician. And music is an important part of my life.
PS: What do you play?
TM: I play piano, guitar, and a bunch of wind instruments. And I’ve recently started writing music. In my early twenties I was a really serious about academics and doing well, but in the last few years I’ve been more interested in rounding out my life. Music is part of this, and yoga is part of this.
PS: Wow, that’s neat. I had no idea you were a musician. Who’s your favoriate Beetle?
TM: You already asked me that! YOKO, remember?
[Laughter on both sides] No, it’s John.
PS: Okay, well thank so much for this interview. . . I’ll probably post this in February. My goal for the next year is to get all of my students to establish a home practice.
TM: How are you going to do that?
PS: Partly through these inspiring interviews. Can you talk about your home practice or your greatest obstacles to home practice?
TM: I don’t have a home practice! There are some days when I don’t practice at all!
PS: Well, okay, but some days you do practice asana, so you have a practice but it’s sporatic, right?
TM: Well, yes. Having a class makes practice fun. Home practice is harder. There are days when I don’t want to do it.
PS: There are days when I don’t want to do it too.
TM: Then there’s that whole thing about listening to your body. If I don’t feel like practicing yoga then maybe I just shouldn’t! Maybe I want to walk or something.
PS: So you practice when you feel like it?
TM: Yes. It’s usually when there’s an energy, an antsiness. Then I do standing postures–you know, the ones that challenge you and make you focus. And inversions.
PS: And backbends?
TM: Yes, I’m just starting to practice backbends at home, though they take more discipline. They’re not as fun because I’m not as good at them. They don’t feed my ego! [laughs].
PS: Does the antsiness go away?
TM: Yes. On the days I want to do it, it’s exactly what I need.
PS: All right. That was great. Thank you so much.
TM: You’re welcome. It’s an honor.